looking back on 2019...

... and forward to 2020!

We're entering a new decade! Which feels so weird and cool to say at the same time. I don't remember entering the last decade in 2010, but I do remember entering 2019 with a sigh of relief 2018 had come to an end. I did value that year and everything I'd learned from the experiences I had. But it felt like the end of a stressful year and that was just what I needed.

2019 went very differently for me. I felt like I could take control of my life and change things for the better. This year I loved studying, the road ahead school-wise. And I watched a loooott of movies. Of course there is always the fear of 'getting a job' or the question 'what I will be able to do after I graduate', but I like what I'm doing now. I'll see what opportunities come on my path in two years.

I got a taste of what love might feel like. And it unfortunately disappeared quickly, by forces I couldn't control.

I made the trip of a lifetime. Went to Malaysia with my family and good friends of ours, which I look back on with so much joy and wonder filled memories. Even now I get reminded of the things we did and saw and get a big smile on my face.

I turned twenty years old and was surprised by my friends, whom I now see even more than last year. (Which I looove & brings so much more laughter in my life)

I got a new job at a theatre at the end of this year. It's still all so new, but I'm so glad I made that step. I also (finally) got my driver's license after taking the exam 4 times. And it feels like such a relief.

For 2020 I wish lots more trips and wonderful moments. With or without my family. Since I will be studying abroad next school year, being away from my family will happen more often. I hope I'll be able to find peace with that and grow in the ability to take care of myself. I hope I'll be able to be at peace with the doubts and fears I sometimes feel when people expect something from me. And I expect too much of myself. I hope I fail and make mistakes. That will be my resolution for 2020: make mistakes. Lots of 'em. Learn to fix the problems, but also know that it is okay when something feels uncomfortable. Not everything has to be perfect. Really.

And most of all: I wish you all a lovely last evening of 2019. And to see lots of you in 2020!

love,

eva